Tuesday, June 1, 2010
I joined Nutrisystem yesterday. I had to. I'm fat. I gained 50 pounds with my daughter and still have 8 pounds to lose of that and before I had Randi I had gained 20 pounds with all the miscarriages. I am totally disgusted with my body, there are stretch marks and saggy skin everywhere. I only lost 17 pounds after having Randi, I've lost 25 pounds by dieting and exercising and since losing that, I've just given up. I'm ready to start again and need some help in doing so. I have never ever had to diet before, the weight always just fell off of me when I was younger. I have never been the chubby one in my family or friends and now I am. It's really hard to take in, but I have to do something about it then just sit here and complain. I have my 10 year class reunion coming up in September and almost every girl I graduated high school with looks exactly the same if not thinner now than they did in high school, even after having babies. The reunion is not why I want to lose weight, but it's motivation. I need to lose this weight for me so that when I go out, I don't feel like people are staring at me because I'm so disgusting. I don't feel comfortable in anything that I wear and I hate shopping because I just get frustrated because I don't know how to dress this body. Ok, that's enough complaining for one post, so wish me luck ladies, I'm gonna need it!