Tuesday, June 1, 2010


I joined Nutrisystem yesterday. I had to. I'm fat. I gained 50 pounds with my daughter and still have 8 pounds to lose of that and before I had Randi I had gained 20 pounds with all the miscarriages. I am totally disgusted with my body, there are stretch marks and saggy skin everywhere. I only lost 17 pounds after having Randi, I've lost 25 pounds by dieting and exercising and since losing that, I've just given up. I'm ready to start again and need some help in doing so. I have never ever had to diet before, the weight always just fell off of me when I was younger. I have never been the chubby one in my family or friends and now I am. It's really hard to take in, but I have to do something about it then just sit here and complain. I have my 10 year class reunion coming up in September and almost every girl I graduated high school with looks exactly the same if not thinner now than they did in high school, even after having babies. The reunion is not why I want to lose weight, but it's motivation. I need to lose this weight for me so that when I go out, I don't feel like people are staring at me because I'm so disgusting. I don't feel comfortable in anything that I wear and I hate shopping because I just get frustrated because I don't know how to dress this body. Ok, that's enough complaining for one post, so wish me luck ladies, I'm gonna need it!


Dawn said...

I've always been blessed with being thin so I can understand your struggle. Just know that you really are beautiful! Praying that you are able to reach a point where you are more comfortable with your weight.

Meant to be a mom said...

Good for you to feel the motivation to do something though. I'm sure you don't look bad. I know that when I look at myself I always notice the extra flab in the stomach, the back fat that sits above my butt like an inner tube. To me it looks horrendous but my husband and friends swear to me its not bad. But like you I want it fixed. Motivation and dedication is what it takes. I want to look better by August. You by September.

sweetpeanme said...

ugh...and this is the worst time ever to have stretch marks and a few extra pounds...SUMMER TIME. Ugh.

But I'm right there with ya girl...I'm about to go on a walk with the kiddos to get some exercise...and I really need to start watching what I eat...but the stretch marks...what can you do about those??? I guess I'll be rockin' the one peice bathing suit with the shorts...totally mom-ish. :o)

That's great that you have a good motivational time frame...that always helps!!! You can do it!! :o))

Carrie @ Dittle Dattle said...

I'm not here to judge you.

You're very brave to pour your heart out! I'm sure you look very beautiful.

I wish you the best of luck :D

Lisa @ Fern Creek Cottage said...
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Lisa @ Fern Creek Cottage said...

Sorry I misspelled several things on my first try. I should have proof read before hitting publish!

I was stick skinny throughout my childhood and can't believe my body is betraying me by putting on weight now! lol
I'll be right there with you this summer trying to take my extra baggage off! Good luck and I hope the new program works out for you!! You're gonna be one hot mama at your reunion!

ashley said...

Bless your hearts ladies!! You are all such an inspiration to help me get this weight off! Thanks for the support!

Jennifer said...

Hey Ashley! The french door refrigerator was definitely a good investment, LOL!!! My mom has one with the freezer on the bottom and it keeps the boys away - I'm so wishing I had one too ;-)

Good luck with Nutrisystem! My friend lost a lot of weight with it and was very happy with the results!

prashant said...

Praying that you are able to reach a point where you are more comfortable with your weight.
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